Uçtu

Merak edilecek bir şey yok, sadece buraya yazıp belgelemek istedim. Babamın yere düştüğünü gördüm, düşmeseydi gideceği yolu gördüm, uçacağı desem olur sanırım. geceydi, gözlerim iyi görmez ama gördüler.Ölesiye korktum, ölesiye gerildim, ama ona bir şey olmadı, ölmedim! Anlatamıyorum pek.. üzgnüm.. Anlatacak yer ve zaman olmadı, endişelendirmek istemedim. Zaten şimdi iyiyiz de değil, iyiydik her zaman. Ama ben bir kere daha anladım... Ona bir şey olursa ölürüm ben. Titredim yol boyu, mideme ağrılar girdi... Şimdi iyiyim, hayat devam ediyoru, etmek zorunda... Şimdi bitirmem gereken bir iş var, bitse de gitsem...

BRUTAL

böyle günlerce haftalarca şikayet etmek istiyorum

o kadar şikayet edeyim ki çenem kopsun

şikayet etmekten

boğazımda tel kalmasın

kafamda sözcük bitsin

harcayayım hepsini

I put some red nailpolish today, and thought of us.. looked like this when we were holding hands.. with love ..

eskiden çok eskiden

"bence dunya gencken "gez toz" bulutuydu sonra ise girdi ev bark fln olgunlasti disi katilasti" Utku Yalçın

lines and lines

It's all so hard... To share... To bring out what is in you, what you are being through, let another see it. Carrying the paranoia of being misunderstood between the lines... Not even between, on the lines, in the lines, during the lines. Thanks

KAÇ yoksa yaşlanırsın !

Oyuncaklarım, kaçın! Size dokunmama izin vermeyin, yaşlanmayın ! Belki ilerde küçülürüm diye saklamayacağım sizi, yenilerini alırım o zaman. KAÇIN YOKSA YAŞLANIRSINIZ!

STOP HOMOPHOBIA !

In our society, when a gay person is asked, “What do you think caused you to be gay?” the straight person will usually expect some kind of an answer. Research suggests that our biology causes us to be gay or straight. But people who are traditionally straight don’t seem to understand that for some reason. Instead they want to know why the question was chosen. So, by reversing this question, “What do you think caused you to be heterosexual?” this questionaire answers the question why was heterosexuality or homosexuality chosen?

HETEROSEXUALITY QUESTIONNAIRE

(Disclaimer: these questions are being asked not to offend anyone, just for the sole purpose to have you think differently about choices that are made in today’s society and to think outside the box)

1.What do you think has caused you to be heterosexual?

2.When and how did you first decide you were a heterosexual?

3.Is it possible your heterosexuality stems from a neurotic fear of people of the same sex?

4.If you’ve never slept with a person of the same sex, how do you know you wouldn’t prefer it?

5.Isn’t it possible your heterosexuality is just a phase you may grow out of?

6.Isn’t it possible that all you need is a good gay lover?

7.If heterosexuality is normal, why are a disproportionate number of mental patients heterosexual?

8.To whom have you disclosed your heterosexual tendencies? How did they react?

9.Why do heterosexuals place so much emphasis on sex? Why are they so promiscuous?

10.Do heterosexuals hate and/or distrust others of their own sex?

11.Is that what makes them heterosexual?

12.If you were to have children, would you want them to be heterosexual knowing the problems they’d face?

13.Your heterosexuality doesn’t offend me as long as you don’t try to force it on me. So, why do you feel compelled to seduce others into your sexual orientation?

14.The great majority of child molesters are heterosexuals. Do you really consider it safe to expose your children to heterosexual teachers?

15.Why do you insist on being so obvious, and making a public spectacle of your heterosexuality? Can’t you just be who you are and keep it quiet?

16.How can you ever hope to become a whole person if you limit yourself to a compulsive, exclusively heterosexual lifestyle, and remain unwilling to explore and develop your homosexual potential?

17.Heterosexuals are noted for assigning themselves and each other to narrowly restricted, stereotyped sex-roles. Why do you cling to such unhealthy role playing?

18.Even with all the societal support marriage receives, the divorce rate is spiraling. Why are there so few stable relationships among heterosexuals?

19.How could the human race survive if everyone were heterosexual like you, considering the menace of overpopulation?

20.There seem to be very few happy heterosexuals. Techniques have been developed that could help you change if you really wanted to. Have you considered trying psychotherapy or even aversion therapy?

21.Could you really trust a heterosexual therapist/counselor to be objective and unbiased? Don’t you fear he/she might be inclined to influence you in the direction of his/her own preferences?

22.How can you enjoy a full, satisfying sexual experience or deep emotional rapport with a person of the opposite sex when the differences are so vast? How can a man understand what pleases a woman, or vice-versa?

23.Is sexual orientation a choice one makes with themselves?

Ti manca a me

Bisogna far sì che chi ama non si senta mai sicuro nel suo amore per mancanza di rivali: senza sospetti e gelosie l'amore non dura a lungo. Ovidio

güle güle

Sevgili Ilhan, Anlatamıyorum ne demek istediğimi hareketlerimle, arada kayboluyor. Ne olduysa oldu, gelip seni kendime çok yakın bırakmış buldum aslında, uzağa gittiysem de uzaklaşamamışım. Bu demek değil ki, yeniden olsun istiyorum koordinatlarımı belirledim, geçti. Ama seni de taşımışım aslında bir yerlere canım. Seni sevdiğim gibi taşımışım. ( bunu ilk defa söylüyorum sanırım ) sevgiyle git güle güle git kendine dikkat et ilya ilyiç

IRONIC

http://www.flickr.com/photos/esinishi/ well... I found myself smiling on photos of times with my loved ones, people I believe life will be unbearable without. I sincerely smile there. But not now... Ironic it is.

bir gündüz rüyası - yeniden

http://www.flickr.com/photos/aadbestaad/108135766/ Gerçekten mi ?

BUTTERFLIES

Natalie Imbruglia Lyrics

Artist: Natalie Imbruglia Album: White Lilies Island Song: Butterflies Swallow purple terror candy Don't forget to breathe Sickened by the wanting And drowning from the need This dichromatic vision Of one who does not care To sipping cocktail sedatives Two months to hide somewhere Butterflies, butterflies Cut the stomach out and Hand it over Butterflies, butterflies My heart will be The bridge that You walk over The wolf has Caught the chicken And now I feel unsteady Emotions on the blink again So kick me When you're ready Here lies a violet coffin The death of my control Along with all my skeletons They put them in a hole Sickened by the notion I give myself again Choking on the bullet The gun that's found a friend So raise your glass to sorrow And dring to all the pain Tie a silver ribbon around The pieces that remain Butterflies, butterflies Cut the stomach out and Hand it over Butterflies, butterflies My heart will Be the bridge that You walk over Geçmiş zaman olur ki...